Yesterday Was Hell

Yesterday was hell.

I was in the bathroom and out and in and out and all the time sick sick SICK!

Yesterday was hell.

Thank you all who commented and who sent happy thoughts and prayers my way. After leaving work I ended up at the grocery store by my house to pick up lunch. Why? I have no clue.

I knew we had food at home but my brain was not working well.

I roamed around the store giggling to myself about the strange items and weird advertising. My cell phone rang and I started laughing out loud.

“Where are you?” It was my wife and she was home from lunch.

“The store. I need lunch. They don’t sell keytone strips at the pharmacy here. Oh well, at least they have a aisle full of hot sauce. Did you know Top Raman is only a quarter a pack!”

“Just come home and I will go to the pharmacy to get strips.” She did not think I was funny.

“Alright but I think I am going to buy some more diet soda. I’ll be home in a second. Do we have cheese? Ugh, I hate this store. The music they play sucks. Why are they selling pineapple corers on the paper goods aisle? Why am I on the paper goods aisle? Ha ha!!”

“George. Just come home.”

I did and checked for keytones. Sure enough there they were but not a huge amount. I continued to drink water and check my BG to make sure all was dropping in to the “safe” range. They did and I felt a whole helluva a lot better.

Yesterday was hell.

Today is much better!

Presently High - UPDATE

The room is spinning and I feel like I am in a sauna. My mouth is dry and I thinking I am breathing loudly but no one has said anything yet.

I started to feel really sick to my stomach for no reason about 10 minutes ago. It hit me so fast. I grabbed my machine and checked my BG.

410

I woke up with a 96 and I know I bloused for a breakfast of oatmeal. So I am on the rise quickly. I stumbled out to my car and grabbed my extra infusion set. When I got in the bathroom I sat down on the chair and closed my eyes. I could hear my heart beating. My breathing in and out sounded like I ran a marathon. I am still breathing like that but no one here is saying anything.

Not sure how long I was sitting there but I finally opened my eyes and dropped my pants to pull the set from my thigh. Before I pulled it out I could see blood underneath the set. I pulled it and had blood spilling out of my thigh. I sat there and looked at it. I can feel it now, it still hurts.

I chose another spot on my thigh and inserted the new set. I couldn’t feel it but I could feel the room getting hotter. It is still hot. I need water.

After I got it in I sat there and stared at the old set with the blood filled cannula. Why does this disease allow for such change so quickly? It is a tightrope walk, constantly.

I primed and bolused for the correction from 410. I am at my desk now telling this story to you. This story that so many of us can relate to. My head hurts now.

I do not have Keytone strips here so I am guzzling water and going to check my BG every 30 minutes. I say nothing to my co-workers. The last time I had an “episode” I was told how I must learn to take care of myself. How I should go to the hospital.

I should be mad at them about their reaction but I am. I am now. I am so angry right now.

I need water.

**UPDATE**
All is good now. I did have some keytones going on but drank a lake full of water and watched my BG slowly roll back down to a nice non-icky range.

Thank you for you kind words, thoughts, and suggestions.

And Nicole, You rock! ;)

N-Dough

As I was sitting in the waiting room Monday night "tweeting" away on my blackberry, I thought about how lucky I am.

Lucky to have a good Endo. Lucky to have a family. Lucky to have you all.

Lucky to have blood work with no issues except diabetes of course.

My A1C was 8.3 which is what it was a month ago. I have been running really high lately so it makes sense. He wants me to try some different bolus options like Square and Dual which I never use. In fact, I would love some advice or hear if you use those options. I know they call then something different on other pumps but I only know Minimed lingo.

Anyhow, He suggested I try a brace at night for my hand and see how that goes. I hope that works.

All and all it was a good visit and I look forward to many more good ones.

The thing is, I am not lucky at all.

I am blessed.

w00t!

You Tube Tuesday #77

Stephen Colbert is hysterical. Here is proof.

Enjoy.

p.s. I'll give you the update on the Endo appointment tomorrow. Thanks for the ideas Sara and MN.

Questions for Dr. Endo

I have an endo appointment tonight and so far here is the list of questions I have for him.
- Can I get a referral for a podiatrist?
- What are your thoughts on Symilin?
- I am having trouble sleeping because of my hand. What should I do?
- Any chance of getting covered for a CMGS?
- When did the Diabetes Police start hiring diabetics?

If you have any I should add, please let me know. I’ll check from my Blackberry.

It Drives Me Nuts!

I need surgery.

I know I am not a doctor or a surgeon or even really good at scrabble but I know I need Carpal Tunnel surgery and I need it STAT!

Every night I wake up constantly with my hand numb and hurting. It drives me nuts. While I am at work my hand constantly falls asleep which makes sending out a “quick email” not so quick. It drives me nuts!

A few years ago I was told that I had nerve damage in both of my arms and hands. I had surgery on my left arm. They relocated a nerve running on the outside of my arm to the inside and did the carpal tunnel surgery so many of you have had or know about. Since then, my left hand has had no problems at all.

My right arm was never done because I changed jobs and saw new doctors and yadda yadda yadda. You all know that drill. It drives me nuts.

But now it has gotten to the point where it is almost unbearable. I am tired all the time due to lack of sleep, I am miserable at work because my hand keels going “night night” on me.

It drives me nuts!

My left hand was out of commission for some time after that last one I wonder how the heck I am going to function! Since I am right handed and my work requires lots of computer stuff, at church I play guitar so that will be out, and then blogging and tweeting will take one keystroke at a time! Yuck!

Just thinking about it drives me nuts.

Oh well, we shall see what the Doc says on Monday and go from there. I have an appointment to go over the blood work.

Any suggestions?

Disappointed

“Good afternoon, the Fischer Group, this is George”

“Hey George it’s Rose!”

“Hey Rose how are you?”

“Good good. Hey can I talk to Sheryl?”

“Sure hang on a sec.”

“Hey George are you still not smoking?”

“Yup, almost 2 years now! What about you?”

“Wow that’s great! No I started again. The stress got to me. Ah well, next time.”

“That’s it, next time.” I tried to be encouraging.

She started again? Rose used to smoke (and I guess still does) 2 packs a day. When she told me almost two years ago that she had quit using a nicotine patch I was convinced that I could do it.

I know I should not let this bother me because I am smoke free BUT it does. It hurts that someone you were inspired by gives up.

Then I think about myself and how I have been slacking on the weight loss thing. I feel like I am letting everyone down, most importantly myself.

Stick with me. I will get my act together and drop these pesky pounds if it kills me.

One thing is certain.

I won't be smoking ever again.