I am expanding. Literally. And at an alarming rate.
I cannot believe how much weight I have gained and continue to gain. I feel awful, look awful, and my attitude about it has been awful.
So now what?
Weight Watchers again? Something different? Lap Band?
I am not motivated to do anything. My energy level is so low that I get exhausted just thinking about sitting on the exercise bike.
And I eat. I eat and snack all day long and late into the night.
Remember back when I would post every Saturday how I was doing on Weight Watchers and everyone was cheering me on. I lost 42 pounds! I felt like I was going to finally get down to the weight I wanted to be and then it all fell apart.
I blame the house situation but really, there is no one to blame. I let that be a crutch and an excuse. Shame on me.
So now I am looking for a spark. A kick in the pants. Something to get the old me back.
I need a lift.