This weekend I will be attending another VDC retreat which I have written about lots of times.
This time will be different for me.
Life has been a struggle for me lately. I have been sort of existing in the world but not feeling as if I am really here. I am not sure if that makes sense but as I go back and read that, it is the perfect explanation.
Floating along letting the winds of change and the currents of the ocean move me around and all the while I tread water. I stay here but without any choices. Without any decisions. Just reacting and staying above water. This is how I feel.
Happiness? It’s there. It is shadowed by a lot of crap and it does come through now and then. I need to get my head and spirit focused and centered.
I need this weekend.
My plan is to vlog tomorrow morning before I leave but that may not happen. I have a lot to do before I go.
Most importantly, I need to prepare my heart for change.