Thursday, August 20, 2009

So Many Reasons

I have had relationships on my mind a lot lately. Maybe because my wife and daughter have been gone up north all week visiting my in laws. Maybe because I spent all of last week lying on the couch and my bed thinking about stuff. I am not sure what it is. But the Type 3’s in my life, some of who are type 1’s and 2’s too, help more than they know. And some don’t even know they are type 3’s.

Recently I tweeted that I have the most awesome friends in the world and I meant it. My friends are not only the people that come over to watch funny You Tube Video’s with me on Apple TV, or past X-Files episodes. They are not just friends that I play Bocce Ball with or people I chat with on Skype. Not just folks I rap against, are in musicals with, or who share my love for all things bacon. They are not only the people I go on vacation with, who share the same blood as I, or the person I have chosen to share my life with.

No, all of these people are people that come into my head when I am feeling down. They are the people who remind me that I am worth fighting against this disease for. They are the people in my life that make me laugh, cry, and want to be a better person.

My friends are like family. And all of my family are also my friends. Sometimes this disease makes me want to give up, lay down, and just end it all. Once, I took a large amount of regular insulin and decided to just give up the fight. A friend saw how I was feeling, recognized the low and almost killed me by shoving candy down my throat. That will never happen again.

I have so many reasons to live and to continue on. So many reasons to fight, to strive for better health, and to want more than anything to wake up tomorrow. So many reasons.

You are one of them.

9 comments:

Crystal said...

Love you tons man. Tons. Hang tough. We are all here for one another.

So many reasons, I know, all too well. I. Know.

I am So very blessed to have you a part of my life. Very.

(hugs), prayers and love, always.

Wendy said...

Blame Diabetes.

You taught me that.

So that's what I do. I blame diabetes when my little girl comes home from school crying because the other girls were looking under the table pointing at her pump. I blame diabetes when she tells me she "can't think" and her blood sugar is 400. I blame diabetes when my heart beats out of my chest during one of "those lows" that makes her pass out and spend the rest of the day trying to recover from.

Yeah, I blame diabetes.

Never give up, man. You are a blessing to the DOC.

The Mindful Diabetic said...

Love you Gmoney! Even though we have never met in person, I feel like we have a bond, like we get one another. I am thankful to have you in this crazy D life! The insulin situation you describe, yeah I've been there twice. The first time a friend made me keep eating sugar and stood by with the glucagon shot. The other time no one was around so it is only by the grace of God that I woke up. It made me go get help when I needed it (meds & therapy). I wish I had you guys back then, it would have helped so much. I am glad I have you now.

Nicole P said...

I miss you, dude. And I love you. Tons. :)

k2 said...

I LOVE you like a MILLION G-Ninja!!
You make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me learn, and you are my forever friend for life.
BTW- I also love your friend who shoved that candy down your throat. WHY? Because that friend was there for you in such a way- that it allowed you to be there for me- and I am so GRATEFUL.
Love, hugs, & bacon!
Kelly K

Lee Ann Thill said...

I just ate a sandwich made with turkey infused with bacon flavor like it had been kissed by the stars above. That turkey reminded me of you, my type-3 type-1 friend :)

Chris Stocker said...

That was a great post, it really makes you appreciate those that are your supporting role even more.
Thanks.

Cherise said...

AWWWW! I understand where your coming from! you sure do know how to make someone drop a tear.

Scott K. Johnson said...

G-Money - you bring so much to so many. Never forget that.